Changing my life, one step at a time

As you have read, I just began blogging last week. What a difference in my life. I always kept a journal growing up and would do really well for a little while writing in it every day, then every few days, then a couple times a month, and...well, you know where this is going. But blogging is different for me. Maybe it is because I am older now, maybe it is because I am in a different stage in my life, who knows? All I know is that it is the most theraputic thing I have done in a long time. I can brag about my kids or my husband, tell about their great accomplishments, or just write what is on my mind.

A friend of mine, who I am getting to know better every day, told me about a blog she reads: Proverbs 31 Ministry. As I talk more to this friend, I have realized how many of the same things we have been through, are going through, and probably will go through. The devotion that was on this website for March 3 has literally changed my life. I struggle so much with what my purpose is in life. I had a great job as Director of Operations for a healthcare marketing company before I had my children and was driven to succeed. That was my purpose (or so I thought). While I was there, I got married to Brian. That was my purpose (or so I thought). Then I had two beautiful girls and things became a whirlwind. I felt as though I did the same things over and over and over and that what I did didn't matter. BUT IT DOES!!

God hand picked me to be Brian's wife. God hand picked me to be Macy's mother. God hand picked me to be Molly's mother. I am responsible for preparing them for the future, teach them about Jesus, and protect them. Wow, that that is a big job. But, that is MY PURPOSE! I have had to remind myself that it is more important to sit on the floor and play with my girls than to worry about the fingerprints that are all over the glass table or the unmade bed or the toys still sitting on the floor of the living room. Those two precious babies need my attention and my time.

Below, I have copied the blog that I read yesterday evening:

Sometimes I wake up on Monday mornings a little grumpy. Time to do it all again. I'll buy food that gets eaten. I'll wash clothes that get dirty again. I'll sweep floors that an hour later will be littered with crumbs.Is there more to all this than just doing the tasks of everyday life?Before I jumped into the normal routine this morning, I sat with Jesus. And I found some big truths as I took a little glance into David's life. Despite how others saw him, his own propensity to sin, and lack of position in his own family, David had the sweet reassurance of God and that was enough.

Overlooked by everyone else. Handpicked by God.

To his older brothers, David was a pest. To his father, Jesse, he was just the youngest son. To on-lookers, he was just a shepherd boy. But to God, he was the one destined to be king. And not just any king. His lineage was the one from whom Jesus would come.

Overlooked by everyone else. Handpicked by God.

Even how David was anointed to be the future king is a telling story. In 1 Samuel 16, God tells Samuel that He has rejected Saul as king and chosen one of Jesse's sons to be the replacement. Think of the list of qualifications that must have run through Samuel's mind for such a position: tall, smart, articulate, brave, groomed, well mannered, a natural born leader. "But the Lord said to Samuel, 'Do not consider his outward appearance or his height, for I have rejected him (meaning Saul who had these qualities). The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart" (verse 7).

Overlooked by everyone else. Handpicked by God.

Samuel had Jesse line up all of his sons before him. All of them were to be looked at. Yet, Jesse doesn't call David in from tending sheep. Was this an oversight? An assumption? A judgment call? A necessity? A deliberate choice?

Overlooked by everyone else. Handpicked by God.

Samuel passes on each of Jesse's sons and then asks, "Are these all the sons you have?"I imagine Jesse with a quizzical expression replying, "There is still the youngest but he is tending sheep." Surely one who spends his time taking care of animals is not the one to take care of a nation.

Overlooked by everyone else. Handpicked by God.

As soon as Samuel saw him, he knew he was the one. David was anointed to become king. But he was not immediately ushered to the throne. It was years before David would be recognized by the world. So, where did he go after being anointed as king? To a refining school? A government academy? Military training?

Nope.He went back out into the fields and continued to shepherd his flock. A king doing lowly tasks. A king whose character was being refined in the fields of everyday life to prepare him for his calling.How like us. In the midst of smelly laundry, dirty dishes, snotty noses, misplaced keys, overdue library books, bills, and that birthday gift that still needs to be mailed to grandma - there is training there. There is character building. There is attitude shaping. There is soul defining. There is heart grounding. All of which must take place for us to become what God intends.

Ever feel overlooked by the world? Take heart sister- we are handpicked by God.I am not just doing tasks. I am building a legacy. I am shaping God's kingdom. I am in the process of not only discovering my calling but that of my family as well. And I don't know about you, but it sure does make me look at my everyday tasks... even the smelly laundry in a whole different light.

Dear Lord, thank you that even when I feel overlooked, I can rest in the fact that I am handpicked by You. Help me to live my life for an audience of One. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.